Be Comfortable With You

Here I'm going to be free, I have to be free for me. I can't worry about what you think or how you feel. I'll be under your opinion and your spell. I'm just going to say it and move on. The things that I express is for me to let it out, let it all out. AND NOT FOR YOU TO JUDGE ME OR TRY TO FIX ME. So put your notepad up, read and digest.

I'm so glad that God continues to show me Grace and Mercy everyday. I'm so glad He thought of me when He went to the cross because it was so much that I've done or said in my past that definitely needs forgiveness. I'm glad I'm not who I used to be hiding in the shadows, lying, stealing, and killing just to try to fit in. Being tall, skinny, red headed, and freckled was not my thing.

I tried to erase who I was, and I even allowed  others to kill me with their words and their opinions. Fear came in and baffled me, stumbled me, and paralyzed me. I tried to fit in with the popular crowd but my money pockets wasn't that deep, I tried to fit in with the nerds but I still wasn't on their I.Q. level, I tried to fit in with the thugs but I had a conscious and I couldn't go forth in their daily routines, I tried to become the lady of the night but I had something that was kept calling me to the light, I became so confused and I wasn't comfortable in my own skin. I rejected everything about me and I lived in that space for years. I smiled, I joked, but in the inside I was jacked up. They talked about me, they rejected me, they broke my heart, they crushed my dreams, they called me ugly, I was the last resort and never the first.

This is not for you to judge me or try to fix me. Just listen and digest it. Maybe after this you will understand a little bit of where I came from. Maybe you will see me in a different light. Maybe you are a person who knew ME before and you can see the changes God has made.

Today I stand here comfortable in my skin, my voice, my looks, and even my personality. I use to say if you knew me you will never forget me. If you are from my past, its ok I'm not the same, but I'm eager to see the finish product of what God is doing in my life. In your own life you might have had something similar but my testimony is that God cared and He cares for me. If He did it for me, He can do it for you. I didn't understand the tears then but now God has turned my mourning into dancing.

So be comfortable with being you even if you don't look like anyone, you don't sound like anyone, you don't think like anyone. It's all good!

IT'S CALLED UNIQUNESS